Tuesday, January 31, 2012

It's Time...

I don't usually post about why we only have one child or go into all the struggles we have had with infertility or miscarriage. But today I am going to share a bit about this sensitive subject.

Before I got married I really didn't ever see myself having kids. Then I met my husband and everything changed. While I still didn't want to have kids right away, I started to see a future of having kids. Then we got married and less than 2 months later found out we were expecting our daughter. We were both ecstatic. Scared, but so excited.

Fast forward through a healthy pregnancy and delivery. My doctor put me on birth control pills at my 6 week appointment so we didn't have any oops babies so soon after giving birth the first time. When Hannah was about 6 months old I decided to go off BCP's so that my body would have a chance to get the pills out of my system so that we could start trying for baby #2 anytime.

Over the course of the last 6 years we have been TTC (trying to conceive)without any success. I have irregular cycles so at least part of my infertility stems from that. However my doctor has tried a few times to regulate me through inducing cycles with drugs but never has my doctor suggested I go to an RE (reproductive endocrinologist) to have the more in depth testing done to see what is causing my secondary infertility. She has however been suggesting that I'm not getting any younger (gee, thanks for that doc) and that my cycles are just going to keep getting worse the older I get. So she has mentioned every time she sees me that I need to either make a serious effort to get pregnant or start thinking about hysterectomy.

After a lot of serious consideration and conversations with my husband, we have decided to go see an RE. I am nervous and anxious and emotional about this. I can't believe I didn't push for this sooner, but on the other hand not knowing what's wrong exactly is kind of a blessing because I don't have to be faced with the possibility of them telling me there is nothing they can do to fix it.

So, we have made the first appointment with a highly recommended RE in our area and on Valentine's Day will be having our consultation with him. I'm trying to not get ahead of the process and just remember to breathe. I know it's going to be a long road ahead to getting a firm grasp on what exactly has been causing this infertility for 6 years but hopefully we will end up with some answers.

11 comments:

  1. well good luck!! I really hope it's nothing too serious!!

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  2. oh, best of luck to you! I hope everything is fine! :) Pray about it!

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  3. Good luck, we went through some very minor infertility hurdles when ttc Peyton. Thankfully a couple rounds of clomid was the cure for us. I always made sure to remind myself though, its ok to be sad, buts it also ok to not have a second because I have Ethan.

    Good luck with everything! xo

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  4. good luck, girl! hope you get the answers you're looking for!

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  5. I know it's hard. I don't understand how it seems so easy to get pregnant when you are not trying to nor wanting to. Then when are ready, it doesn't happen. I'm so sorry sweetie. As I have commented before, we are kind of in that boat as well. Haven't seen a specialist but the only advice I got from a doctor was to lose weight and it will happen. I think thats pretty much a load of crap. I hope your meeting has some insight and some good news. Good luck sweetie!

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  6. well i think the fact that you have your 1st consultation on the day of love has to count for something!
    good luck & sending you TONS of positive energy!

    xxoo
    cyn

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  7. I really hope that everything goes well. I hope you get good news at your appointment. I'm not a doctor or even in the medical field but did your doc ever look at PCOS? I have that and we have had trouble getting pregnant as well. Just some of the things you shared sounded familiar to what I have gone through.

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  8. I am so sorry to hear about this. If you need someone to talk to you can email me. I am not a professional, nor do I have personal experience with your situation. But I am educated and I could offer up some information to you on fertility and such. I wish the best for you, darling. Good luck!

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  9. Thank you for sharing your story Chrissy. I shared mine on my blog too. My readers and friends gave me the encouragement I needed to get the initial tests done. I later found out that I couldn't have children and while I have been open about what's happening I haven't actually chosen to share what's wrong, simply because comments like 'it could be this...' or 'this worked for me...' Very few of our family members know what the issue is and that works for us. We simply don't want advice from people other than our doctors etc Much love xoxox

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