Tuesday, February 14, 2012

This is Real Life, Y'all


So I had my initial appointment with the Reproductive Endocrinologist (fertility specialist) today. I gotta be honest, I was so nervous...maybe nervous isn't the right word, I was anxious. I was having trouble breathing because of my anxiety about it. I knew going in that he wouldn't be telling me anything I didn't really all ready know today.

We talked about my history, Sean's history. We talked about what my cycles have been like over the last 10 years. We talked about my weight being a factor in my infertility. Yeah, that was fun. Look, I'm not trying to fool anyone, I am overweight. A lot overweight. I know this and everyone who looks at me knows this. I am trying to change it every single day when I get up and I work out doing yoga and strength training and later in the day when I bike my ass off biking 13.1 miles several times a week. I am counting calories, I am making good food choices and making wise decisions on portion control. So I knew he was going to bring up my weight and that we would have this discussion. Didn't make it any easier though, let me just tell you.

After those discussions, we talked about where to go from here. He wants to do an ultrasound with blood work to confirm his suspicion of PCOS (Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome) which he believes is the biggest part of my infertility. As part of this course of action I am to double my efforts on losing weight because he wants me to drop another 30-40 lbs before we start a treatment plan with fertility meds or anything. So I am going to be taking Metformin, which is used to treat PCOS and it can help you to lose weight.

I don't necessarily feel any better about my issue after this appointment, but I certainly don't feel any worse. I am still processing to be honest. I don't know what will happen over the next 3 months. But I am going to really make an effort to lose the weight he has asked me to lose but I am keeping my mindset on continuing to lose weight because its healthy for me to do that not because it might help me get pregnant. I can't focus on getting pregnant and losing weight to make that happen unless I want to just lose my mind.

So don't be surprised if you see a lot more posts about my weight loss and working out and everything around here! That is gonna be taking up a lot more of my time as I try to really focus on losing 30-40 lbs in 3 months!

5 comments:

  1. I'm glad you don't feel worse. Too bad more couldn't be said for the first meeting. What did I tell ya? Seems to be the trend for them just to say lose 30 pounds. Exactly what I was told to do as well. I guess we are on a mission to get this done together :) Good luck sweetie!!!! You have all my support

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  2. I wish you the best of luck! I look forward to reading your posts about weight loss and exercise...I'm trying to lose about 30-40 pounds as well.

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  3. Good luck lady! I'm sure you can do it...Summoning up the resolve is half the battle, for me anyway! I have a friend with PCOS and she found success with Clomid. Crossing my fingers for you!

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  4. Good luck!! I am glad the appt didn't make you feel worse...wish you had some better or definite news though!

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